dissonance

You say you're busy but you're probably just lazy.

Whew it seems like it's been ages since I've posted... 3 weeks, which isn't to bad, I've been worse before.  But lately I've been struggling with managing all my interests and activities and it's making me a bit sad.  I think something's gotta give.

• Blogs - Yes multiple. I'm a nutter.  So I've got this one, the personal wedding one, posting over at WC Brides, and the knitting one (more on that in a mo).  Right now, I think my posts are all mediocre and that's lame for me and for you.
• Actual knitting - I have a tiny bit left on my current sweater, just the neckline! It's pink, and 80's and fabulous! But I can't seem to find the quiet time to finish it.
• Other crafts - I have fabric to make some cute projects. I want to refinish some old mirrors we have. I want to reupholster a chair. I want to paint the dining chairs. I want to practice using Photoshop and Illustrator (currently on hold until I get a new computer).  I want to MAKE THINGS.
• Wedding planning - Ok so I kinda freaked out (mainly for your amusement) the other day but seriously need to get cracking on some big decisions.
• Reading - I really admire how Craig churns through books.  In fact, he read the last book I bought for myself. I keep going back to my friendly familiar favorites when there is a large stack just waiting for my attention. But come on, HP6 just came out, of course I had to read the entire series again!
• Cooking - It's kind of been a while since I road-tested a new recipe but new recipes inevitably take longer and time in the evenings seems to be a rare commodity lately.
• Work - This is a new one. Normally I would not list work as something I want to make time for, but I seriously love my new job and I haven't even officially started! But it's something I could easily spend a lot of my time on and be happy about it as well. Tough life eh?

And when I do try and hunker down on one project, I freeze up and then just end up watching reruns of Friends and SATC. And then before I know it, it's time for bed and I walk past the computer, wedding magazines and unfinished sweater to see that Craig's finished another book while waiting for me.

Will work for macbook

There's no getting around it: My powerbook is dying.  It starts to wheeze after about an hour of use and then it starts freezing up and I have to tilt it to make it keep going.  Yes, that's right. There's been instances where I've actually had to orient it with the keyboard on my chest and the screen on my lap.

Trouble is, I don't really have money for a new laptop. Correction, I don't really have money for a new Apple laptop and fine you can call me brainwashed or whatever but I want a mac.  5+ years of not a single bit of trouble (well til now, in its death throes) has convinced me of that.

Anyway, even if I had two grand jingling in my pocket I would feel guilty that it wasn't going in the wedding fund.  Do you know how many bouquets that would buy?  Ok, I wouldn't need that many but it would be sooo faaaaaaaabulous with like rainbows and unicorns jumping out of it blessing people with 100% Pure Sparkle as I walked down the cashmere aisle.

But then I think ok now it's the wedding but then afterwards I would feel guilty if extra money wasn't going towards saving for a down payment.  And then I'd feel guilty it wasn't going towards furniture.  And maybe eventually I'd feel guilty it wasn't going towards diapers.

And oh man, is that what you want?  Do you really want me to resent my hypothetical kid's diapers because I don't have a mac?  Please, think of my (hypothetical) children!

Which is why I seriously contemplated using a credit card to spread out the risk. Unfortunately I've only been approved for a few hundred pounds because I'm a foreigner who has been paying cash for everything since she moved here so I don't have a credit history.

Damn you cautious fiscal habits! You owe me a laptop!

This is a blog post!

You know what I hate?  When you go to buy a card and they don't even try.  I mean sometimes you could shell out over $5 and it's just insulting that they don't even make an effort.

Like birthday cards.  As cliche as "Happy Birthday" is, I don't mind that. I don't mind that because it is far better than the cards that say, "It's your birthday!"

I mean, way to state the obvious.  Unless the sender is trying to say, "Oh wow, I totally remembered it's your birthday and I just wanted to let you know." In which case it leaves the recipient in the awkward position of looking for a card that says, "Congratulations on remembering my birthday," which by the way, Hallmark does not make.

This sentiment extends to other types of cards like:

"You're engaged!" - well I wish my boyfriend told me that but I guess it's just as good to hear that from you.

"You're having a baby!" - OH that explains the missed periods and weight gain!  Trust me, that poor woman knew she was having a baby long before you did.

"It's your wedding!" - I KNOW, I INVITED YOU.

These aren't really worth buying a card. They're just declaritive statements. But the worst of the bunch don't even bother to be statements.

Today I was as the shop looking for a card for a wedding we're going to tonight and I swear half of them just said, "Wedding".

That's it.

Just "Wedding".  There might be a cake or a picture of a bride and groom, but to just say "Wedding"... what does that even mean??  At least they are equal opportunity, I also saw a card (I freaking kid you not) that was as plain as plain could be and on the front it just said, "Civil Ceremony".  (?!?)

These types of cards definitely hit the bottom of the pile.  It would be far better to get a blank card with a picture of a kitten playing a banjo.  For any occasion.