dissonance

Musical notes

1) Cindy let me borrow her Encore cd and it was good stuff.  In my opinion, better than its predecessor.  The guy is still vulgar, offensive, and boy what a whiner... but he's got a lot to say and I have to admit I sat there and listened, really listened, to the whole album.  Two points of note: I was suprised to hear Toy Soldiers as the chorus track to "Like Toy Soldiers".  I see where he's trying to go with that but still... Martika, man?  And second, I get it. He has issues with Kim. Talk about beating a dead horse...

2) While browsing through the 'Pod I stumbled across "Restless Heart" by Starsailor.  Cute stuff:
She stayed till the morning
Left with her soul intact
Something was forming
I asked her if she'd come back
My restless heart beats like a wanton drum
Take this to heart, say I'm your only one.
Say I'm your only one
Say I'm your only one
Say I'm your only one
Say I'm your heart

I think Andy gave me that one. Thanks!

3) Dido is freakin awesome.
"See You When You're 40"

I've driven round in circles for three hours
It was bound to happen that I'd end up at your house
I temporarily forgot there's better days to come
I thought that I would give it just one more chance

Cause I want, tonight, what I've been waiting for
But I found, tonight, what I'd been warned about

You think you are complicated, deep mystery to all
Well it's taken me a while to see, you're not so special
All energy no meaning, with a lot of words
So paper thin that one real feeling, could knock you down

And I've seen, tonight, what I'd been warned about
I'm gonna leave, tonight, before I change my mind

So see you when your 40, lost and all alone
being comforted by strangers you'll never need to know
not sad because you lost me
but sad because you thought it was cool to be sad

You think misery will make you stand apart from the crowd
well if you had walked past me today I wouldn't have picked you out
I wouldn't have picked you out

now I've seen, tonight, how could I waste my time?
and I'll be on my way, and I won't be back
cos I've seen, tonight, what I've been warned about
you're just a boy, not a man, and I'm not coming back.

Hahaha... BURN!!

$2,000 can be spent much better

I saw in interesting episode of Without a Trace last night. If you Tivo'd it or something stop reading right now cause I'm gonna spoil it.

The basic premise being that this woman goes on an Extreme Makeover/The Swan type show and she disappears during one of her sponsorship appearances.  It turns out the woman was so miserable after she got all this surgery done that she ran away and got it all undone to go back to her life before, and dang, she was pretty miserable before too.

Anyway, got me thinking about what I would get "done" if given the opportunity.  Not that I actually would, but I think a lot of women go through this hypothetical question.  Sometimes it's not even hypothetical. I have a relative who got her boobs done. For her husband. Isn't that just terrible?  It's one thing to just do it for yourself, hey it's their body, whatever floats their boat.  But to do it because of someone else? Why?

Anyway.  I'd consider a nose job. I have this bump on my nose, courtesy of running into a wall in third grade.   We were having this race which ended at the wall and the catch was that you had to hop on both feet with your hands behind your back.  So since my hands were behind my back, I apparently thought it was a good idea to stop myself using my face.   Dang that was so dumb.  Anyway, like all middle school boo-boos the school nurse just had me lie down with an ice back. But in retrospect, I probably broke it because I look at pictures before the third grade and shoot, I had a cute nose.

Yes, that's an awesome story and I suppose it makes me who I am but eh, I have a lot of stories. I could do with one less.  There are other surgeries I think about briefly but I guess nose comes out on top.

But I know that changing my nose wouldn't make my life any different or make me any happier. I doubt anyone else would even notice (people are usually puzzled when I point out my 'bump').

The things I really want to change aren't physical.  I want to be more motivated.  I want to be more trusting of others.  I want to be less selfish.  I want to be well read and creative.  I want to be a good daughter.  I want to take more chances in life.  Too bad I can't get those with $2,000 and a long weekend.

Shot drama continues

Good News
I found my shot records! They were in a folder with (get this) copies of my important records.  So just yesterday I'm worried about how irresponsible I am, and today it turns out that I'm the type of person that makes photocopies of important things.  So it's not that I'm irresponsible, it's just that all the drug use has ruined my memory.

Bad News
I get my skin test read (negative, duh) and then the following conversation ensues:

Nurse: Ok, great. So the earliest you can come back is Monday but make sure before Thursday.
Me: Eh?
Nurse: Oh, didn't the first nurse tell you?  You have to take two within a week of each other.
Me: %*$#@!

Seriously, was not paid

Here's some trivia I heard this morning:

43% of women said they would go on a date with a guy depending on this.

Ok, I will give you a minute to get your head out of the gutter.
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It's his music collection.  Interesting, yes?  And when I think about it, I think the type of music someone listens to does say a lot about them (more so than what they watch).

When people ask what type of music someone listens to, a popular answer (in my experience) is "Oh pretty much anything".  And now that I know the trivia that I do, I realize that is not a good answer because that is perfectly useless. But I think a lot of us resort to that because we lack good descriptions of our taste in music.  My opinion of 'hip hop' may not match your idea of 'hip hop'.  Plus we can't lug our Logitech 500 CD holder around with us.

The solution is simple.  We should all carry our iPods around all the time and upon meeting someone new, browse each other's playlists. "Hello. Nice to meet you. Can I see your Recently Played list?"  Don't have an iPod? What are you waiting for? I know, I know, the answer to the question is that you're waiting for $250 to fall in your lap. But for the good of humanity I solemnly promise that once I rule the world, I will buy one for each of you.

In the meantime, I think we should ban "Oh pretty much anything" as a response to the music question.  What's in your cd player right now?  What's the last concert you went to?  Don't be shy.  Saying N'Sync may score you more points than you think. (just kidding. I love them but if you're a guy, keep that dirty little secret to yourself)

I hate shots

Being grown up sure is a nuisance.  Sometimes all the things I have to be responsible for in my life is overwhelming (don't laugh).  I miss having my mom and dad taking care of everything for me. 

For example, while I was living at home, they pretty much kept all my official 'records' in order.  Green card, passports, birth certificates, etc...  As soon as I got to college, bam, I lost my green card.  Seriously, within one quarter I lost it.  So I had to go through the hassle of getting a new one (Boy they are not nice about giving you a green card a second time around).

I'm going to start volunteering at a hospital and I had to take a TB shot. I'm going to go get it read today or tomorrow and the nurse told me to bring my shot records.  Now, if I was still at "home home", I'd know exactly where they were (ok, Mom would know where they were).  But now that it's my responsibility I can't find them.  Arghhhh!!  Please don't tell me I have to take shots for measles.  I know there's a little yellow card somewhere that says I already had them.  Besides, what's this little yellow card business? Shouldn't someone, somewhere, have all this information in a computer by now??  Ok, that's beside the point.

And stupid taxes.  When I was in high school, my parents filed everything for me and I sat back and waited for my check (I started working since I was 14 so I always got my tax money back).  And now... well I got my W-2 but I know (and you know) (and I know you know), that shit ain't getting filed until March 30.

Maybe it just takes some practice.  Because by the time I knew my parents, they were old.  So by then, they knew what they were doing.  Maybe they were just as irresponsible at my age and with time, I will be the one that takes care of everything too.

Somehow that only slightly comforts my fear that I might need a tetanus shot.

---- Update ----

From the info sheet from the hospital:
If you cannot show proof of measles vaccination our employee health nurse will vaccinate you free of charge.

*sob*

My fellow quarter lifers...

... chin up. Nature has told me that the best is yet to come.

Odd Thomas

Oh, Dean... I expected so much more from you.  Anyway, it wasn't bad, it just didn't quite live up to what it could have been and he has much better books.  If anyone is to delve into Dean Koontz may I suggest the following instead:

Watchers
Mr. Murder
Strangers
Sole Survivor
The Door to December

With the exception of Door to December, you can of course borrow any of these from me.  With a  $5 deposit.  Haha, just kidding. The $5 is non-refundable.

mmm beans and cheese

I went out to a bar last night and made a disturbing discovery.  I've lost my beer goggles.

You'd think by my 3rd vodka tonic (I am not a drunkard) everyone would start to look like Jude Law. But alas, they started to look more like ... well, I don't want to be mean so let's just say they did not look like Jude Law.

It was interesting to see all the interactions going on around me.  But the level of superficiality was a little disappointing.  Guys would literally stare at girls' asses as they walked by and occasionally stop them immediately to talk to them.  Come on, try some subtlety.  Although the girls were no better with their giggling and hair tossing. 

When did I become such a cynic?  These people are just trying to get a little somethin and all I could think was, "everyone here is an idiot". (Except the people I went with of course)  I know it's me that's being the idiot. "Oh my goodness, people are being superficial and flirtatious at *gasp* a BAR."  What did I expect?  Meaningful conversations and networking?

I decided to just go with the flow (zen is the new thing) and right at closing time met some clearly drunker people who bought me a kamikaze, which totally helped alleviate my cynicism, go figure.  And just as I was starting to loosen up we got into this conversation about how the entire city of San Diego is relationship-phobic.  I knew it wasn't just me who thought that!  It came from three independent sources, someone who moved from Texas, from New York, and a native San Diegan.

So let's summarize shall we? I've lost my beer goggles and I'm going to be single forever. (as long as I live in San Diego) (maybe all of California??)

...  I feel like drowing my sorrows in a big fat bean and cheese burrito.

You are what you watch

The other day my co-worker pointed out that I make quite a few references to Half Baked and Office Space.  And since they already know about my office life, it makes him wonder about my social life.

Dude, I am not a pothead.  Sure, I've dabbled in the greenery once in a while but not enough for me to be quoting Half Baked all the time so I gotta stop that. I also have to stop talking at work.  I say just enough things out of the blue that I have a feeling they think I'm a pothead, a drunk, and/or a lesbian.

But it also makes me wonder. What do my preferred choices in movies and television say about me?  I think someone saying that they are a huge fan of Elimidate probably says something about them.  Even more so, would you expect the Elimidate fan to ever really get along with the fan of Histories Mysteries?

What are some of my favorite shows these days?

Alias (Don't kill me P but I have two (2) eps to catch up on before Wed)
Desperate Housewives
Friends (every situation in life is open to a Friends reference)
Family Guy
Project Runway (the 'better' America's Next Top Model)
Simpsons
Everybody Loves Raymond
Sex and the City (better on HBO than the censored TBS reruns)
House (it's like Srubs, ER, and CSI all in one)
CSI
Cold Case (although it's been reruns for a while now)
Queer Eye for the Straight Girl (the original fab 5 are getting annoying)
King of Queens (Can't wait to see Kevin James on Hitch)

Hmm... so I think what my list of shows says about me is... is that... dang, I watch too much television.

I swear I was not paid

I've been using Bloglines for a couple of weeks now and I must say it's pretty nifty.  Rather than sitting here and compulsively checking everyone's blogs everyday, Bloglines just notifies me when there are new updates. Productivity instantly increased twofold! Huzzah!

So I added a Subscribe with Bloglines link over to the left.  If you don't use Bloglines yet, I highly recommend it. It's been goofy just a couple of times.  For example, it would say something is updated but it's not or, even weirder, it will show a new post to me from my feed page but when I go to the actual blog the new post is not there.  But other than that, nifty.  Oh and will [email protected] and the cowparty site please get an RSS feed on their blog?  kthanx.

Secondly, I've added a Google search field down at the bottom. It only searches within my blog and I'm not quite sure what one would use it for.  Also, I think I'm doing something wrong because a search for "Braff" comes out empty and you KNOW that's wrong.  Anyway, as useless as it is for now, it's there.  Anyone have advice on why it might not be working?  I've tried both the values "mimsie.typepad.com" and even "mimsie.typepad.com/dissonance" .