On Saturday Craig and I had an impromptu date and at the end of the night we were having a last drink at our local pub and I thought to myself, "I don't mind being 30."
I know I made a little bit of an issue out of it. I even left the country for it because I almost thought that if it happened in secrecy it might not have actually happened. I just felt so old and it seemed like just another reminder of how my life at 30 isn't the way I thought it would be at 30.
But then on Saturday when Craig went to the bathroom and I was on my own I couldn't help but think,
"Ooh I really like my outfit tonight. I couldn't have afforded this when I was 18. This merlot is nice. I wouldn't have known what "nice merlot" meant when I was 21. This is a cool pub. I wouldn't have had the guts to move here when I was 23. I'm so excited about my new job which I didn't know was what I wanted when I was 25. Craig is so the best. I wouldn't have appreciated him when I was 27. This merlot is NIIICE... yes, I'll havanotherglass..."
I won't say something so stupid or trite like, "Life begins at 30". But it sure isn't the end of it.
I suppose now that I have found this peace in my life you think it's time for me to think about taking down the birthday cards. Yes, my birthday was in May, and? No, the cards are staying. See, now that I have finally found peace with my age, I need to be THIRTY 4EVER.